188. I am Seeing Ghosts that Don't Exist in Reality

I'm happy
I'm feeling glad
I've got sunshine
In a bag
And I'm useless
But not for long
Because the Future
Is coming on
Is coming on
Is coming on....

I think Gorillaz lyrics and melodies are genius.
At first I thought it was synced up with the usual Hollywood messaging.
But it's all about questioning existing convention and dreaming and destroying utopias.
The melodies and beats capture you, and you don't even realize this work is totally rebellious.

One more ingredient to keep me pumped up.

I was singing that song before my ghosts were dissolved into thin air.
At least I enjoyed them for however long they lasted.

Below is written by my best friend, ANONYMOUS in DENIAL. I helped her. Some consultation. Not that I have any experience or can be of any help. Which I don't know why she comes to talk to me. But I thought what she wrote was interesting, and she said it was okay for me to post.

You know what?
It comes down to I have no hope and faith in males.
You have hope.
Then you get burned.
Time and time and time again.

Today was embarrassing.
I have been seeing ghosts since Friday
That do not exist in reality.
I was told to arrive / call in between 3-4pm.
No response on phone.
I show up live in gratitude to turn in a cartoon
For a birthday
And apparently as if no conversation
Or time syncing occurred the day before.
I struggled to talk and stammer
And then I dashed out as quickly as possible.
My mind was going the speed of light.
I was going through a time-warp bubble.
And then it's as if my brain just crashed
Into a wall going 100 mph.
*Poof*
Dxmmit! Don't give me fxcking ideas if you don't mean it!
Don't touch me! Don't fxcking touch me!
Don't give me ideas and then crash me to a wall!
Fxck!

I abandoned my work in Riverside.
Just for this 3 or 4 pm deadline.
I would have stayed longer at home.

Perhaps in all this, I got a taste of what it is like
To swim in the infinite creative mind of Michel Gondry....

And I also got a taste on the techniques on how you make people cry.
You are very good at manipulating emotions, making people cry... and I fell victim.
Good job!
I'm not playing anymore.
I'll kill myself if I do.

I don't want to think about this anymore.

And I hope no one reads this.