316. Poem / Song Called "Cut it off / Caving in / Idee fixe / Spread too thin" Principles of Mental Management Amidst the Quarter System!

Cut it off / Caving in / Idee Fixe / Spread too thin. Page 1.
Cut it off / Caving in / Idee Fixe / Spread too thin. Page 2.

PDF to the poem found here: http://stokastika2.googlepages.com/cutitoffcavinginideefixespreadtoothi.pdf.

Well, I have been blasted with information this weekend. My mind drifted into a poem that I wrote back in early 2005, or so I think... during my first year leave of absence.... The poem discusses several themes: (1) information flow (volume) and information management (2) mental management, mental processing (3) mental metabolism and the digestion/processing of ideas (4) the university as an unhealthy information overload atmosphere (5) mental carrying capacity in terms of information input and processing, then brain shuts off or engages in selective conscious input (6) control of mental health through psychological labeling and pill popping, or change of behavior and change of environment (which is what I will be posing and advertising as a Disabilities Student with "anxiety disorder"). It was so ironic that the representative at the Disabilities Office recommended that I not be enrolled in the program because--despite the program's effort to keep information confidential, there is a tendency for this kind of information to be distributed around the gossip mill of departments. I told Mary (I think that was her name) all the better if people gossip, because this is actually a good part of my Ph.D--this whole notion of unhealthy human-environmental constructs. And I am just another victim of it. Like right now, I have to lock myself in my room for a while and write all the shxt out of my head before I can calm down! So, I get free advertisement. I seriously don't have high anxiety disorder 100% of the time. I only have anxiety disorder given that I am placed in a certain environment (like a university campus) for extended periods of time. Then I get fried. Same like ADHD. It's selective. Primarily after eating too many brownies and not jogging enough. Same with obsessive-compulsive disorder. When I am too isolated and regimented in my thoughts. It's all about phasing in and phasing out with mental thought patterns.

This adjustment of my own mind from one thought pattern to another also mirrors the diverse thought patterns of stakeholders of a system with common environmental resources. Are people fixated and tunneled onto one or two ideas or visions or values? Or are people prismatic and multi-factorial in their thinking? To what degree are they an obsessive-compulsive, narrow hedgehog? To what degree are they controlled-ADHD, curious foxes?

It's also related to time demands and information management as well. People who have crazy time deadlines tend to think more linear. People with more free time to think are more so non-linear in their reasoning (but hopefully not information saturated!). That is the problem with being an open-minded person. One can become supersaturated with information quite swiftly.

No wonder why I have electronocommunicatiphobia (ECP)!

128. Blue Horizons Continued: Very First Blog on June 25, 2007

Yesterday I spent my afternoon out with Oscar Flores out in Ventura. It was a nice, much needed break, but as I return to blogging, I feel guilty for having fun.... I have to get back into the Zen of Blue Horizons flashbacks.

Basically, the next three blogs will post the "first three blogs" that I wrote in the summer of 2007 that I never had the chance to post... until now. I wrote them in Microsoft Word, not exactly knowing how Blogger worked at the time. Since these first three blogs are rather long, I will review them and type out key words / key quotes, such that they are hopefully more "searchable" on the internet.

http://stokastika2.googlepages.com/blog1june252007.pdf

Above is the pdf file of my first blog.

And here goes a string of key words and quoteable quotes!

**Dealing with the Initiation of a Blog ** Why Blog ** lose track of time ** the hardest part is always starting / but once you're going you keep on rolling! ** from initiation to habits to addiction ** blogging versus journal writing ** university 31 flavors Baskin Robbins ** females rambling contextually and gossip properties versus males short and to the point ** audience versus non audience ** mental entropy ** spontaneous organization ** shifts in audience ** first 100 blogs are junk, but the 101st blog will start to look interesting ** who is the audience ** my dad said "I only know 20 people very well in my life** gradient from humanity to pseudo-autism ** at least 20 people care about my blog ** "all of you make up the pieces of me" ** Vic the Conglomerate ** I am more inspired by conversations than reading books ** Victoria, Vic, Vickle the Pickle, La Victoria Salsa, Victoria's Secret ** "I am the summation of elements from my environment" ** self-promotion, marketing is a necessary evil demon for self survival in a mass-production system ** simultaneously selfish and selfless ** relativistically selfish ** internal TV-box reality ** apathy and pacification are evil ** "the greatest evil of all of humanity is apathy and lack of action" ** "to me, human interactions through bureaucratic structure is like capillary action of water molecules through a tree" have to tag a water molecule higher up to go up the branch to the next step ** positive and negative molecular interactions of humans ** MENTAL DIGESTIBILITY ** interactive ** multi-media ** biologically incorrect: if to laugh, then to think ** Mark Twain flashback ** "educational entertainment" ** re-integration of education and entertainment ** MENTAL METABOLISM ** cussing issue ** f*ck or fxck ** "my brain feels like an eternal abyss of ideas at the moment" **

You're Almost Standing on the Board, You're Almost Riding the Wave, Poem called Intellectual Barf / Mental Metabolism

Okay, Vic. I woke up this morning feeling more "mentally free," so I have to keep organizing all my thoughts relative to films of human-natural environment. Don't give up. I am going to dump some things which I created into the blogger. First is this poem I wrote called "Intellectual Barf / Mental Metabolism." I wrote it earlier this week, Monday in fact, as a byproduct of an attempt to focus on the class. Here it goes. Please click on it. :-)