Showing posts with label stream of consciousness. Show all posts
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Monday, October 05, 2009

466. A Phenomenal Interview, More Like Casual Conversation with Mike Davis (Ecology of Fear, City of Quartz, and Human Environmental Writing)

Well, well, well, what can I say? Roadtrip Nation is changing my life. Surprise?! Perhaps not. Yesterday, Shannon and I had a totally outside-the-box interview with Mike Davis (most well known for Ecology of Fear, City of Quartz), and I am not exactly sure where to begin... and most certainly... this cannot... and will not end. Here goes my stream of consciousness: There's the beginning aspect of things, like here I am sitting at this neo-cool-looking house in a nice neighborhood within the noisy flight path of the San Diego airport, staring at THEE Mike Davis, like the one who wrote all those books, and is this MASSIVE name in environmental writing, the "MacArthur Genius Dude" and so many other accolades in which society acknowledges his ingeniousnessessessess, who by default combines issues of social and environmental change (when most of the university is used to divorcing such topics)... well to say in the least, we both agreed that the university is full of bullshxt theories all around, let alone pin-headed specialists who don't have much context in terms of what the hxll everyone else is doing outside of their narrow field of study. But here I am... here I am... having this casual conversation with Mike Davis.... And I'm just jittery inside thinking this CAN'T be happening, this is a special moment in my life right here and now. I worked very hard in my own self development to reach this moment to come to FULLY APPRECIATE and have the the ability to RELATE to the works of Mike Davis.... Pretty soon, Shannon and I came to realize that he's one of those MacArthur folks: not only his mind is a massive encyclopedia of the history of environment, history of science, history of social movements, and WHO KNOWS what else, but his mind has the capacity to SYNTHESIZE and ORGANIZE these concepts. He has the best of both types of intelligence. For me, I don't have much of an encyclopediac inventory, but I have synthetic capabilities.

I have probably met three or four of thos MacArthur Fellow types, and honestly, they have brushed me off as if I were a piece of snot or the unwanted overly eager graduate student mosquito they thought I was going to suck their blood.... but then to think that Mike Davis was so excited to meet me just as I was so eager to meet him! I think we both feel we're in this odd fringes region of the university--synthetic thinking doesn't have much of a place in academia anymore--and we're just kind of at the fringes, looking at this circus arena, this zoo, and trying to make sense of it, not only in academia, but the context of the university in society. We're both frustrated with the lack of history of science and science writing programs in southern California. Most of them are in northern California. We're both frustrated that the university has made such a huge effort to deny and strip the socioenvironmental context of scientific pursuit and human-environmental change. And a bonus, Mike feels that the Endangered Species Act is doing a major disservice at managing ecosystems at landscape scales. Okay... lots and lots... and lots in common... lots of literature sharing to do.

Gosh, I am just scratching the surface.

Mike Davis discussed quite a bit of his history--and his professional career. He claimed the job title as "activist" and Shannon and I were puzzled, like... that kind of job description doesn't exactly exist in today's world. He ended up marking "disobedient writer" in our quote book, and that seemed to make a lot more sense. Mike was born in Fontana (so was I), raised in San Diego in a "blue collar family" as he called it, and had difficulties... he had to stop high school for a while and join the work force. His experiences as a laborer had a profound impact on him and his thinking. Mike went into detail of his time working as a truck driver and laborer for a furniture company that distributed its goods all across America, and he had been directly exposed to issues that are mostly "behind the scenes" to the rest of our eyes. He never finished a Ph.D. in history at UCLA--not exactly sure why--but it doesn't even matter because he has had so many professorial appointments in so many types of departments over the years (Geography, History, American History, Architecture, Pioneer Mountaineering Writing Class, now "Creative Writing" at UCR, an odd appointment for him, because he's never taken a creative writing course, he's learned through self discipline, plus a career in the publishing industry in London? he describes himself teaching classes he knew nothing about initially... )--he essentially is Ph.D.ed but in a more informal way. I could say he's had more of a profound impact on several disciplines than most other professors.... So, he's done his part, I'd say. So, at one point, when he was doing this back-breaking labor in a furniture company (in his forties?) he had an appointment to teach urban planning for one day at week at UCLA, and it was a very bizarre experience he had. He was paid more for teaching an urban planning class at UCLA than he was for all his work in the furniture industry! First of all, he came to realize how manual and physical labor is highly undervalued in this American Society and how people in the university sit on their butts and not necessarily have real world experiences, create weird theories on how the world works, and they get paid much more. Mike doesn't mean to overly romanticize manual labor, but he felt that he was contributing much more to the world by moving a box from point A to point B than sitting in a classroom, telling stories to students. HE FELT THAT HE WAS A PART OF THE PROCESS, AND THAT HIS EFFORTS CONTRIBUTED TO EVERYONE ELSE'S EFFORTS. And that is a fundamental concern I have about the pursuit of science... and the role of science in society. THE REALITY IN THE OUTER WORLD versus THE REALITY IN THE UNIVERSITY are so dichotomized, so black and white... it's so traumatizing... I would just have to sit and laugh... no wonder why my Ph.D. question is "what's the point?"

That story was a huge moment for me. I look at my own life through the lens of Mike, and I see parallels, lots of parallels.... I was a high school geek who worked her xss off and went nuts at Del Taco cleaning bathrooms and mopping floors over a month. Manual labor had a profound impact on me. Why was my high school experience so dichotomized from real world work? How come real world manual labor only required me to exercise about 3% of what I had come to input in my brain? Why do I have high affinity for laboring fishermen and lesser affinity to math modeling, office-quarantined ocean-marine-biology teckies, the glorified scientists of society? Where has science gone? There are hardly any "naturalists" "outdoor field scientists" anymore, in ecology, evolution, AND the Earth Sciences. It's a dying breed, dying to tecky work and modelers who can barely have a grasp of reality. Computers have put science in the mental stone age.... Okay, same old stuff. Same old stuff. I'm preaching to the choir. But I've got a new choir member. Mike Davis and I agree... agree... agree....

Mike's affiliated with socialist groups / Marxism. I HATE being affiliated with ANY political group. I like to consider myself a BIOLOGIST figuring out the intrinsic, natural science underpinnings of human behavior and the constructs of society. Hence, this blog, this human society is biologically incorrect! I think that humans are completely detached from the notion of being biological creatures, detached from their local landscapes. I think political constructs are artificial, with no discrete boundaries. And my being a scientist, I don't like that. My take on America and many European countries is the concept of "degrees of freedom" and "degrees of constraint." Every country needs a socialist baseline of stability and degrees of freedom in order to invite an invitation to playful competition driving innovative change. If the basic needs of the vast majority of the population any society are not met--air, water, food, overall internal and environmental health, family, shelter, safety--then the society is by default UNSTABLE and is vulnerable to REVOLT/COLLAPSE. I think there needs to be a threshold of people who are impoverished to lead a revolt against those who have control of most of the resources. "When the rich are too rich and the poor are too poor, there is going to be rebellion." Good Earth material, amen. I remember the Wikipedia stating that perhaps the next ideal form of society is small-scale, decentralized, local systems. Everyone can know each other, treat each other well as an instrinsic checks-and-balances system, and that all transactions are local and attached to the regional landscape. This certainly makes sense to me!

Some other things we talked about. Since Mike is an "activist," the notion of having a "job" never really hit him until his forties, because before then, it was all about being an activist--changing things. Mike was involved a little bit in the riots in Isla Vista in the 1960s (burning of the banks) a bunch of rioting student surrounded by police throwing tear gas at people. Students would be revolting and surfing, and they would be crying while they were surfing because of the tear gas. It was a landscape unimaginable to me. Isla Vista is more like an MTV riot nowadays than a riot with the anti-war movement. Mike Davis said something profound--I am paraphrasing him--"Cross-generational discussions are very difficult to engage in. I don't know how anyone in my generation could even have the nerve to give the younger generation any advice on how to define their own roads to life, because of all the problems that we have contributed to and dumped upon the younger generation. Technically, I'm not supposed to be saying that, but that's why I'm here. Saying things that I'm not supposed to say." I'm shedding a tear. That's probably the coolest quote I have so far for Roadtrip Nation. Mike's just making me more determine to succeed. Mike said he's all about "Question Authority," just like my advisor Armand; he has that bumper sticker on his car. I thought it was weird, because he was and still is my authority, and I follow him around like a puppy dog. The bumper sticker somehow made me trust Armand even more.

Mike discussed a few progressive universities in Europe that are transforming their curriculum in which professors' lectures are taped, made free for all, and then graduate students would have small-scale discussions with groups. It would eliminate the problem of 600 students to 1 professor problem. I told him that this experience in the university is downright "demeaning," and I had to supposedly plee for a "learning disability" stating I could not funciton in these classes due to high anxiety. I think the environmental context created this anxiety, and as soon I was out of these service classes, then my grades went up.

Mike is actually kind of shy about "interviews." He's had the BBC England come to his house a few times so he could be the expert authority about Los Angeles. BBC England has created stereotypes of Los Angeles and California, and these stereotyping stories have not changed a bit over the last 20 years. He stated that French media is more edgy and progressive. Makes sense with Michel Gondry and all. Mike apologized a couple of times, "Sorry this isn't exactly the interview you were expecting, huh?" I classify this interview as "outside the box" along with Randy Olson--probably the two most impactive interviews Shannon and I have conducted.

So, then Mike and I came to the subject of writing. He said that he learned how to write in his thirties, and it was a very VERY painful process. He thinks that creative writing programs are a bit futile in terms of the concept of someone teaching someone else how to write--people train themselves. I agreed, but I stated that my goal is "to teach people to teach themselves." That I think teachers can do phenomenal things if they help students, encourage students to ASK THE RIGHT QUESTIONS, AND FRAME THEIR MINDS TOWARDS THE PROTOCOLS OF CURIOSITY, then teachers do have a service in shaping, influencing young writers. Many creative writing classes involve getting together in a circle and everyone reading their blurb and then critiquing, starting with the schmooze of "what I really like about your writing...." People are so into complimenting each other, and no one is willing to listen to an honest, harsh critique. Mike Davis had an ultimate metaphor for schmoozing fragile writer egoes: going to a construction site with a hazardous building situation HALF DONE, and then you start to critique, "What I really like about your project." Same thing with writing. Mike sees writing as a visual building block game, just as I see it! I'll give you my two cents, eh? Mike said that many undergrads at UCR are interested in science fiction, fiction, romance fiction. Most graduate students are interested in fiction. And if there's ANY nonfiction, it's MEMOIR. There's NO SCIENCE/ENVIRONMENTAL WRITING. No training about how to tap into your surroundings. Geeze goodness. Pathetic. Mike said when he was in his twenties (his students are mostly in their twenties), it was an outrageous, perhaps SELFISH notion to even consider writing a memoir. Who in the hxll has an interesting life? Mike--even in his sixties--is not even willing to touch on the notion of a memoir of his life.

We complained about how science/environmental writing was non-existent in southern California universities, let alone ANY history of science courses. But then, how can we train people to do science writing then their jobs are vanishing into the dark side? I told him my approach is that this society does not need science journalism per se, but this society will always need SCIENTISTS. And that the goal is to train scientists (with pertinent research topics) to become better storytellers at the interface of diverse audiences inside and outside the university. And Mike agreed that's the way to go. I have two endorsements for an experimental science/environmental writing course: Mike Davis and Randy Olson. I need one more official sponsorship and then I will go to Bruce Tiffney and Claudia Tyler and ask them if we can set this up. I'm not exactly ready yet. Mike's shaken my internal tree, I have to figure out where I'm at right now. Mike asked me whether jobs exist in "environmental media"? I said basically, NO. I'm going to have to fight for it. I'm going to have to convince people that this is a worthwhile scholarly pursuit. Good luck to me!

Mike's currently teaching a landscapes and writing course, in which he states it's very experimental. He was really excited to hear that I was interested in sitting in! Woohoo! He says it's an interesting crop of students. I think on one of the first days of class, Mike went into depth on the first geologic expeditions of the Grand Canyon (1850s? 1870s?) and how these three geologists (Powell, and two others... my meager memory) went through these amazing analyses of the region. They had to invent so much terminology just to describe what they were seeing, for example, the Great Unconformity. Mike discussed the evolution of the researchers' observations over time. How SCIENTIFIC ILLUSTRATION was MORE ACCURATE than PHOTOGRAPHY back in the day--the role of scientific illustration! And the emotional thrill of these adventures! Back in the day, the Grand Canyon was indeed the wild west for geology. But to re-experienc the thrill of exploration, no one has implanted any pre-existing perception of the land, and you are to craft your own conceptual understanding of the Grand Canyon from scrap? INSANE! Mike said that the writing/landscape course is like a geography course rehash, but with its own twist... but no one needs to know that!

Mike was kind of interested in my dad's background and I told him how my dad backdoored into the university. Everyone in the family was pretty geeky and academic oriented. My dad hated school period; he self trained himself in vegetation and climate through observations and experiences as a child in the San Gabriel Mountains and then in an accidental field trip, my father made some observations of the vegetation zonation and the professor's jaw dropped and the next week he was hired. My dad as an undergrad was pioneering in aerial photography analysis of the vegation of southern California. Pretty crazy stuff.

Mike Davis really loves the work and adventure of field scientists, but he also discussed how even these scientists have their own departmental pirrhanna situations. Ha! I would know. Mike also made a point in terms of a shift in his writing career--He received a large advance from a New York publishing house to discuss the Los Angeles riots, and he had several contacts that would make an amazing story discussing the social injustices in Los Angeles, but he came to this point realizing, why he should be the one who has the right to tell the story about the difficulties of these people's lives? Such heart-wrenching stories! And then he fell back to his true passions for SCIENCE. And that is when he not only explored social problems of Los Angeles but also the biophysical problems of the design of Los Angeles, and how the social and biophysical aspects intertwine.

There was lots of discussions of strange, exotic places all over the world. Mike is currently writing a teenage adventure thriller series on scientific expeditions to really whacko places with unthinkingable ecosystems. The things you're trying to conserve are the things that will kill you--poisonous snakes for example. In a certain way, Mike is publicizing certain regions of the world that receive very little attention. He's totally enamored with Greenland, east Greenland. He told me one place I need to see is Greenland. Strange--most people tell me to go to the tropics. There was a lot of discussion about the Enuit people and their relative isolation from the rest of the world. 100+ names for types of snow. Geeze. The aspect that stuck out of my mind is how the people were "craving for winter" not summer. Because in summer the bugs eat you alive. There are interesting dynamics with sled dogs--somewhat "brutal" relationships in terms of dominance hierarchies and maintaining pack order. You must keep the the dogs partly trained and partly feral to maintain social organizaiton among the dogs and their masters.... The list goes on.... What can I say? Mike Davis is a very well traveled man.

Mike had this idea of doing an "Environmental Impact Report" of Los Angeles. HA! I told him about the quote from Aldous Huxley, "The most populous City is but an agglomeration of wildernesses." Doing a complete local and global EIR impact of Los Angeles. Where all the food comes from, the materials, and where are they dumped out. That would be INSANE! Such a cool idea! I asked him if he was going to do that--he says his writing gigs come and go with his appointments. He seemed very excited at the topic, but perhaps at the moment a bit time strapped with alternative commitments. But GREAT IDEA! Ha! And in Question Reality, I was trying to write a summary report on humans on planet earth for the Decapodal Pogostickapoids! Same idea....

MAJOR DRIVER FOR POST APOCALYPTIC SCIENCE FICTION STORIES THAT STAY TRUE TO THE SCIENCE--IMAGINING "SUCCESSION" IN A CITY. THE FIRST MOUNTAIN LION THAT ROMPS THE STREETS. Does "nature come back" as is... or to what degree of alteration? We discussed that, post war, post disease, it's different. I told him about the issues of reforestation in Costa Rica, same principle, secondary types of communities returning to once originally rainforest, then abandoned pasture, agricultural landscape.

Mike and I discussed how American science has framed biology and evolution in a VERY POOR WAY. For example, "Organisms adapt to the environment, rather than organisms mold the environment. Organisms as a geophysical force on this planet." Hands down agreement. Secondly, as an aside, I told him I removed the words "nature" and "culture" from my vocabulary. I said those words created ambiguity and problems of discussion on clear ideas. He agreed, good move. And thirdly, I told him that American evolutionary biologists frame evolutionary studies from the the point of view of COMPETITION. Like some kind of capitalist version of evolutionary studies. And that Russian approaches to evolution have seen more of a SYMBIOTIC-COLLABORATIVE approach to evolution. Goes along with socialism quite well. Hence the evidence of social context for driving scientific frames of reference. Mike Davis gave me a Vernadsky (sp?) book to read "The Biosphere" a biogeochemical perspective, and then I told him about Andy Knoll's research paper on "the geological consequences of evolution."

Joke: "Men are linear. They can only do one thing at a time, whereas women are more multi-taskers." I heard this claim twice. I'm not too sure if I agree. I can multi-task when some things I do are automatic knowledge, but I don't necessarily agree all men are linear. Take for example, my dad. He can drive safely and look and describe all the trees around him--to the chagrin of my mother! And then there's a famous music composer--Chopin, I believe--who had the ability to tune and process 6 different conversations at a party all at once! I CAN'T DO THAT! That's overwhelming! Wish I could!

I think Mike Davis is science writing but BEYOND science writing. Science writing plus IMAGINATION. For example, science fiction that does justice to science--post apocalyptic stories and such. Man wiped out from the world, what would happen? As Seth said, "The bad news is the world is going to hxll. The good news is that the world will be a much better place afterwards!" That's good for me because I got this whole alternate reality fiction streak in me! Imagine succession, small to large. Reverse engineering, like playing jenga with an outcrop.

RANDOM FACTS: Mike said Wallace was one of the best self-trained scientists ever, but he went onto the spiritual side of things. Lots of British laborers, mechanics and craftsmen, supported and advocated for evolutionary theory. Used word epistemology several times. Mike's totally into igneus rocks and geomorphology. My fetish is for sedimentary rocks and fossils. Powell. Dutton. McPhee. Powell expeditions. Rediscovered emotions. Climate models and climate field scientists are in TWO SEPARATE UNIVERSES. He claims he doesn't write to change the world? Then what for? Yes he does, doesn't admit it! Polar Federation. Affiliates with landscape art and classical geology. Top rated science writers are at Science and Nature, but Science is mostly dry and NONEDITORIAL. Nature has more EDITORIAL. And the Lancelet is VERY EDITORIAL medical journal. Mike Davis is concerned about how the public has a perception of scientists but NO ONE HAS A GRASP OF THE BEHIND-THE-SCENE CULTURE OF SCIENCE. Mike Davis says that there is no frontier for science writing to educate the general public, but there is a frontier for science writing for political/social change. That's where I come in. Amen. Same for Miller McCune. That's why they're different! That should be exposed, how knowledge is not fixed and debated all the time! Old fashion geography where natural and social sciences meld together. Klamath, Siskiyous, Eocene. Self-trained scientists. Unified Interdisciplinary Scientists, not many of those anymore. Russian interpretation of evolution as cooperative survival. Anti endangered species act. I told Mike Davis my first paper was on SCALE AND METAPHOR as drivers for narrative in science and social-environmental change. Mike Davis added "metaphors that don't lose their meaning in simplification." That's the magic of great science writing. Darwin's metaphors are very powerful in our everyday lives. Wallace-Humboldt, founders of biogeography.

I think I'm recuperated from my intellectual drunkedness from last night. I ended up talking to Mike Davis into the wee hours... 11pm.... I am so excited! His wife Alessandra is an art professor at Mesa City College who is doing hands-on art exhibit courses (museum studies) and his two twins are a riot. The boy loves rocks and the girl loves animals. They have their own taste for things!

I was really honored Mike said he would read "The Mountain's Last Flower" and give it an honest critique. I told him I was up for trading, and he asked me to read and honestly critique two chapters in Dead Cities. I teased him saying that this book is already "fixed" and "set in stone"! But no, what about an honest review? Who has given an honest review?! I'm SOOO excited!

Friday, May 23, 2008

219. Resuming Communing with a Frickin' Computer Macbook Pro

Apple is based in Cupertino. Home of Jen. The Kingdom of Surburbania. Godzeeks. Kill me. American Beauty.

I have backup software from Oscar and Julio for these computers, but the problem is might need to get codes from the computer. I paid my dues for the software at the bookstore. Student prices. Sad though. Still over 1000. Should I put them on this computer or a giant desktop. Just do with what you have. You have to start experimenting somewhere. Too bad experiments have to be so expensive. Dxmmit.

Mac's have amazing "search" methods.

Microsoft Office ID is ... won't say.
New mac computer. The entire feel is like a new landscape. It's for multi-media. It's for art.

It has such a tiny slit to enter the CD or DVD. Geeze... First time EVER installing software on a mac, shxt.

I guess I am scared of Mac's because they seem infinite. I don't know what they know or don't know. I don't know what are the boundaries of Mac. I have a good sense of boundaries with the PC computer, but these macs still seem like an abyss.

And then Windows Vista came and made my sister's life HXLL. I gave her my sony vaio laptop for her birthday. That was 1600 back in the day. But it was a crxppy transition model from the 10 pound to 4 pound laptops... some detaching loading dock.

What the hxll.

Entourage is an email service and such. Used to be called, quark? Or
I just opened up a 600 dollar package. There is no going back.

Currently installing Adobe CS3. Might need some “codes” etcetera…

I just registered adobe CS3. It is daunting. Amazing. Powerful. Overwhelming to think I have this giant software program in my hands. I can create anything. And I have power to use this stuff all the time. I no longer have an excuse NOT to create. I am no longer technologically constrained. It's overwhelming. I have Photoshop. Then there's Adobe acrobat. You can compile forms, pdfs. Like for publishing a book. That is cool. And then there's combining files, exporting them, review and commenting on files, all sorts of interesting stuff. Then there's adobe bridge that bridges all types of files from one software program to another. Whoever made this software is on dope.

The only way to move backwards in time is to MOVE FORWARD. Expand what your box can be, and then you clutch more to your past. :-)

I guess the goal here is to open each software program. Briefly fiddle with it. Know it's basic purpose, then move on with stuff. Bridge is for managing media "visually." Which is cool.

Computer has a mini firewire and a big firewire. Then there is Adobe Device Central, which is to design, preview, and test engaging mobile content. Like stuff for cell phone. uh huh. well. i haven't gotten there. Adobe Dreamweaver for making websites. ~#~ sees this as a chore. Maybe he can teach me some stuff, how he works with stuff. Then there's some Adobe extension manager. Which I don't know what that is. Maybe for adding plug-ins to existing software. "Extending," so to speak. Ha ha ha. It's interesting they have all this software and the logos are like they are from some Chemistry Periodic Table.

Brilliant user friendly interface and tutorials. Get the most for what you've bought.

It looks like I am going to have to start going to those tutorials at UCSB. Free. Trains you how to use the software. And then I can get chummy with my computer. He he. I had a quick training with a graduate student from the Media Arts Technology Department on Flash. He's cute. Used to be macromedia flash, bought out by adobe. Predictable. He still sends out emails every once in a while. Graham Wakefield is his name. Does experimental acoustivisual stuff. MAT Department is cool and they might get into acoustivisual stuff associated with environmental scale. They work a lot at nanotechnology scales--even neuroscience scales--simply because they have lots of grant funding. But to Joann Kuchera-Morin, at all scales, it's all the same though it seems different.

It seemed like my getting into graduate school at UCSB was interviewing a bunch of professors with different viewpoints. I wished I could film the process. It was very much like the film Waking Life.

So, I have to review how to use flash. Shxt. There are tutorials in the CDs provided. And also stuff on youtube.

There's also some Adobe Flash Video encoder. Adobe help viewer. God.

I guess using this software is just like my starting poetry. The first 100 things you create with this software is CRXP. And then the 101st project is superb. I feel like I am starting from scrap. A baby all over again. Shxt.

There's also Adobe Help Viewer. It's where you got to ask questions. Need help in anything. Most importantly is you need to create basic workflow within all these software programs. Then every single time, you are experimental and add new things. This is what you do late at night. Ridiculous things like this. Experimenting with your new software. Experimenting until you become Master of Space and Time.

Aha. I have an older version of Adobe Illustrator. Better for graphic design. Vector over raster. Can become infinitely small or infinitely large, not lose resolution. Cool stuff. Difference between GIS and Adobe art is that GIS is visual mapping of stuff but you are able to map data on visual landscape layers. Not a big deal. Adobe (or Microsoft) could create that easily.

Now have Adobe Illustrator on. Coolio. Kind of a good acquaintance. It is amazing how I make complete and utter analogies getting to know a new place or a new technology, is very much like learning a new person. Starting from scrap. Adding layers that build over time. And some people and places and technologies (family, friends, Santa Barbara, Photoshop) you choose to invest in fully, and other people and places you don't dig yourself so deep. It's not worth the investment. Like Los Angeles, or even Illustrator. Or even a roommate. But maybe they are worth knowing more. It's all about digging deep into the rabbit hole. How far are you willing to go?

It's funny. People socialize with technology, rather than other people. Well, when I am on the computer, it is the opportunity to commune with my own brain. I need to do that. That is good. But I can get bored of my own brain.

Now the great Adobe Indesign. Woohoo. Page layouts. Designing of magazines and newspapers and the works. I am SO excited. I can't wait to get to "know" Indesign, as if he or she were my right-brained buddy.

Oh ya. Other software too. What is aperture. It's some photo software in the computer. There's also AppleScript. Automator. Calculator. Chess. Dashboard. Dictionary. DVD player. Useful. Might need to download quicktime. Expose. What is that? Just plays DVD. They also have iDVD. Whew. Expose just darkens the dashboard. Okay. There's an entire font book. Cool. This software is all under Macintosh HD, and then "applications." Front row. Something to deal with movies. Not interested. Then the infamous garageband, must learn to use better. So simple. Create new music project. Even create a new podcast episode.

Garageband is built in midi. You can basically painstakingly compose a piece by punching in code. Anyone can do this. How come NOT everyone is doing this? Creating their own shxt. Busy consuming? Watching TV. I don't get it.

There's iCal. I California. iCalendar. Scary. I am not going to use it. There's iChat. You can talk to people through a screen. Scary. iDVD. iPhoto. Image capture. One second. That seems fun. Oh. You need an image capture device connected. Then there's iMovie. iMovie is a VERY simple version of final cut pro, but VERY good to have. iPhoto is for organizing photographs.

Mac's are very integrated. PCs are fragmented. Julie Ekstrom type of talk, eh?

iSync is for syncing up devices. iTunes and iWeb I am already familiar with. I now have iWeb, which Dave Panitz trained us on how to make a website from last year. Then there's iWork. Still don't know what that is. Email. Microsoft office 2008. entourage. excel. powerpoint. word. microsoft messenger. yuck. Photobooth that is what Maria, UC Leads Riverside has in her computer. It's amazing shxt. I can't believe I have it. Will be lots of fun. Take whacky pictures of things, right from your computer! You can even do videos and then upload them on Youtube! Whoa shxt.

Preview is for "previewing" pictures. Quicktime player is already downloaded. Good. Safari is how to surf the internet.

They also have "virtual stickies" ha ha.

Some apple diagnostic CD vic did NOT get.

Then there's system preferences. personal appearance. desktop and screensaver. dock. expose and spaces. international. security. spotlight. bluetooth cds and dvds. displays. energy saver. keyboard and mouse. print and fax. sound. aha. i am starting to figure out the borders and parameters of this computer.

For internet there is .mac, network, quicktime, sharing.

Then there are system accounts. Date and time. Parental controls. Ha ha. Software update. Speech. Startup disk. Time machine. Universal access. Vision cuew CS3. Classified under "other" of system preferences.

Each window has some shadow effect. Crazy.

Then there's text edit. Which is like microsoft notepad. It's only been 8 years and there has been revolution in technology, exploding in my face as soon as I got into college. Shxt!

Time Machine is a back-up data and work mechanism. Need an external drive though. Maybe. Need to turn it off or on.

Then there's a "utilities" folder. The last folder of Applications. Includes activity monitor. Adobe installers. Adobe utilities. airport utility. AUDIO MIDI SETUP. aha. IAC driver for midi devices. Aha. Can add an external device. Aha.

Continuing. Bluetooth file exchange. Boot camp assistant. I could use one of those. bootcamp helps you install microsoft windows xp or windows vista operating systems (booo) on an intel-based mac computer. how lame. would never do that.

Now some color sync utility. Console messages. Digital color meter. Directory is for looking for things. Disk utility is for the HD? Fujitsu stuff. Matshita stuff. Something called a grapher. You can MAKE GRAPHS 2 or 3d. Very useful stuff. WOW. Like micro matlab or something. Have to type in my bioxyzbum password.

Then there's this Java folder. Javaweb start. Whoa shxt. Cache is empty. Keychain access. Who has access to the computer, I guess. Migration assistant helps migrate files from one computer to another. Network utility. What the hxll is a "ping"?

I told ~#~ last night my mac computer seems daunting and limitless. I do not know it's boundaries yet. I am starting to feel better. ODBC administrator. Something called Podcast Capture. Let's you EASILY RECORD AND DISTRIBUTE PODCASTS. Check out later.

Raid utility. No RAID card installed. System profiler. HAS EVERYTHING YOU WOULD POSSIBLY WANT TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR MAC. Codes and specks and all. Oh shxt.

Terminal. Funky code. Is that like DOS for windows? Like the "underground" code that generates all these visualizations? Ya. It does all this "command" stuff.

There's a voice over utility. general. verbosity. speech. navigation. web. sound.

If the world were ruled by dogs, we would have smellevision and smelleputers, or nostrilputers or chemiputers. I need to find more geeky "nasal" oriented words. If the world were ruled by bats, wow, we would have sonarvision or something like that.

Navigation. Web. Sound. Visual. Numpad. Braille. Even braille.

Wow, it's so true. The parallel is super precise. Getting to know a human versus getting to know a place versus getting to know a piece of technology. All the same. Starting from scrap. Holistically. X11 xterm. More programming of shxt. C++ and the works.

Adobe teamed up with http://www.lynda.com/ for video tutorials on how to use all this flippin' frickin software! Sheesh!!!

Adobe creative suite, two more CDs to look through. Figure out what's on them. Then need to reflect on my own shxt of stuff. Workflow process.

Why film is so powerful. Because it creates a TRIBAL COMMUNITY within a large interdependent system. Intimiate interaction and then you can scale out this tribal personality out into the world to see.

The content DVD definitely has all these "workflow" and instruction manuals in them. Adobe used to be GoLive but adopted Dreamweaver. They flopped GoLive.

I joked with the computer guy at the UCSB bookstore, as soon as I pay my 600 bucks for this software, it will become out of date 3 seconds from now. Like shxt.

Adobe gave some free stock photography. I mean "free" in quotes.

There's one image of the bloge, planet earth overlaid with stock exchange, economics, and this one is overlaidwith computer chip netowrks. Very CLEVER. Something I want to do in perceptual relativity.

I told Scott Chatenever that it seems like ever since I wrote my manuscript, I came to meet a lot of very interesting people. And I will say that the people who were the MOST OPEN AND WILLING TO LISTEN were THOSE READY TO RETIRE and THOSE WHO JUST STARTED THEIR PROFESSIONAL CAREER. Those just starting are RISK TAKERS and are willing to do something "OUT THERE" to break into the arena of adulthood incumbency and acceptance. Those who are about to retire ARE READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL and REALLY PISSED OFF that they are throwing in the towel when so many problems continue to exist. Hence, coming to Oran Young. He is about to retire, but he wants to leave his mark. Leave an open door for a brighter future. So he took on me and Alexios and Julie as environmental media students.

Adobe gave lots of free stock photos. They have corporate art down pat. I think my sunflower will be wonderful corporate art. It's a matter of hooking up with the right people. Sigh.

Even some free, extra fonts. Goody!

It's funny. How long have I had "Adobe Creative Suite" on my to-do list. And finally. Something so deep rooted and technologically stifling has been scratched off my list! Now Adobe Creative Suite total training. Aha!

The last thing I am looking at here is the picture workbook. Can't wait to put this away. I can only learn so much about a computer in one day. What is Adobe Fireworks? Extra animation for websites, I guess.

When I see the world, I first see the world in pictures and sounds. It keeps sorting and organizing things. But then afterwards my slow left brain trails around, trying to pick up these pictures and sounds, eh? Ya.

Art? Commercial. Economized. Eh? I can't believe they have software to design shxt for cell phones. Believe me, I am NOT that attached.

Chase design. Director worked with Sonny and Cher.

It seems like my research is commodified. Environment commodified. Aesthetic. Everyone else's work is my play. And my work is everyone else's play. That is called human ecological tourism.

Gee and Chung design. For various non-profit groups and such. Multi-disciplinary. Web and environmental design for technology oriented clients. That would be COOL to do an internship with these people. Environmental design firm. With clients and such. I try to have a home-made component in mine.

Seems like most major firms are partners. Two extremely creative people meet and make their own reality. aha. Another one Adams Morioka. It's cool Adobe adds these people.

Maybe one day Vic should go to an Environmental Media / Environmental design conference. I am assuming it would be very inspiring.

Dreamweaver and widgets. Shxt. Adobe is based in San Jose, California. Well. I think I can do a lot of this stuff. It's just a matter of learning the software. I need a break from novelty. Clean up the "old' around me.