Showing posts with label american idol. Show all posts
Showing posts with label american idol. Show all posts

Sunday, April 12, 2009

409. Paving Over Une Mauvaise Memoire: Out with Failure and In with Success at the Origins Symposium! (Poem / Song)

Poem / song "Paving Over Une Mauvaise Memoire" is the first time I create a poem that was more like Franglish, the rule of the poem was to be mostly English, but have at least one French word or phrase in each line of the poem. The poem is about my experience of paving over negative memories with positive ones, that the summation of failures can equate to a success. I have learned that it is very difficult to write about failure until you have achieved a state of success. The PDF can be found here: http://stokastika2.googlepages.com/poemsongpavingoverunemauvaisememoire.pdf
The poem / song "Anorexic Ocean / Bulimic Human" is the first poem where I clearly compare and overlay the processes of psychological (mental disorder) with environ-mental disorder. THIS POEM WILL GO IN THE NEXT EDIT/REVISION OF CHESS. The PDF can be found here:


Main Caption:
Before one can build a positive story of downright success, one must "get over the failures." My first embarrassing experience in Phoenix, Arizona was affiliated with American Idol (July 2008), which represented the most vile and base standards and ethics of human society. I dare not affiliate with such a venture any longer. And now, upon my return to Phoenix, more specifically, Tempe, Arizona, as a volunteer for the first ever Origins Symposium (world's largest popular science conference, spearheaded by Lawrence Krauss), I am ready to dismiss this past illusion of failure and surround myself with a positive sphere of utmost success. I have been productive with processing old photographs representative of my Highway 10 car drive from California to Arizona and back (from the last trip as well as this trip), as well as devising two poems I am very excited about--with the themes of connecting psychology and the environment, as well as paving over negative memories with positive ones.

Some Picture Captions:
Caption: Negative Memories of American Idol in July of 2007 and 2008, San Diego, California, and Phoenix, Arizona. Currently getting paved over with success. American Idol is the most intellectually and morally insulting venture I have ever encountered.Many American's want to be an Idol, essentially a mass-produced clown to be draped with the mass-produces products for corporations. Why?

Caption: American Idol Production Crew and Hollywood Mafia Judges.

Caption: Wildland fire-bathed sunsets can heal wounded souls. To think that I almost made it past the first round in San Diego singing "I would if I could" self-invented song, but flopping with singing a "Blue" techno song, which is essentially unsingable. That was a decision under a state of sleep-deprivation. You have to sing other people's crxp to become an idol and sing your own crxp--which is crxp invented by industry standard ya baby ya Hollywood formula songwriters.

Caption: Sole cacti in the middle of the Arizona desert can heal wounded souls. At this point, I invented a song, Media Reality, People's Reality--discrepancy....What I also saw this year in the Origins Conference. I hold no bitterness any longer.

Caption: Distant, strange mountainous terrain (and nuclear sites?) in the middle of the Arizona desert can heal wounded souls.

Caption: Familiar mountainous territory near palm springs, coupled with towering summer thunder clouds can heal wounded souls.

Caption: Strange grasshoppers (cicadas?) chirping in massive abundance, embedded in the shade of a tree by the side of the 10 freeway can heal wounded souls. It seems like whenever you don't understand and come to hate your own species--humans--you tend to find solace in simple creatures... like grasshoppers.... They make more sense... more often than not.... As the cartoon goes, if you want a friend in Washington D.C., go get yourself a dog!

Saturday, August 09, 2008

249. "Media Reality, People's Reality" Poem / Song Initial Response to American Idol, Phoenix, Arizona

Below is a rough draft sketch of initial thoughts that need to be further elaborated.

Media Reality::People's Reality
(poem/song by Victoria "Stokastika")

How can I resume to assume
When there's hardly a thing, to hold on to?
How can I come to trust you
When there's no longer incentive to pursue?

Media Reality::People's Reality
Incumbency. Discrepancy.
Between what They Feed
And what We Need
Between what We Know
And what They Need Us--
To Believe....

Bombard! Repeat!
Till Truth Comes
From Your Lying!
Bombard! Repeat!
Till Truth Comes
From Your Lying!


I think it is insulting to look at myself in the mirror, and with my multiple encounters with Hollywood the last year and a half--to think that I have worked so hard in life, to think that I have developed strength in my mind--only to be rejected by these "agents" and "producers" who value "image" over "conduct," who value "sparkly super human tricks" over profound content and emotional depth of the performance! Talk about the root of, and the perpetration of surface-value discrimination and stereotyping!!!

To think that my parents lied to me when I was a little kid--they lied to me saying that if I worked hard, then I will get what I deserve, I will be rewarded, and I will go far. Well, the more and more I am out in the real world, I have come to realize that they lied flat-out.

So now, the pure, idealist values of my mind are in conflict, in a multi-layer bind of the spectrum of conflictory values of society.

All the statistics in the university says that there is a discrepancy between what the public wants and needs (in terms of mental consumption) versus what the multi-media producers force-feed and drown the public in.

It's one thing to collect all the statistics in the world.

It's another thing to directly encounter and experience it--directly--and be rejected--in your face--and to allow this echo of rejection vibrate within every neuron and bone and tissue layer within your body. The frustration and anger and anxiety builds up until there is a point you just yell out--and who knows where you will be when that moment comes (thankfully I was in the middle of the desert between Arizona and California).

A rejection based on image and style over conduct and content has essentially shattered twenty years of my education. Hence, I go back to my Ph.D. question, entitled: "What's the point?"

What values are these?
The summation of human brains in society experiencing a multi-layered bind of denial and confusion and chaos because there is no value system and there is this illusion of some reward system?

[Okay, that was the end of my rough draft. I have a LOT more to say about this topic, but we'll save that for LATER! I created the above main theme of the song in the car after a Toastmaster's meeting in which Greg (a police detective) discussed "The Hollywood Factor" in the public's perception of police.]